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Diary August/2015 High School

  我在这个下午告别，把热烈的，沾满泪水的幻梦踩碎，埋进这片泥土里。光线明暗不一的往事在我心里头闪过，带着尖叫，虔诚地分割我的身体。我会不再执着埋藏在砖墙里的一朵两朵的情怀，或是深夜里黄色的灯光。我会半梦半醒地回来。前头还有路要走，还会有斑驳的砖墙。夜里我的梦里头兴许会有别的颜色的光。

This afternoon, I say goodbye.

I grind beneath my feet the fervent dream, soaked through with tears, and bury it in this earth. Memories, lit unevenly by shadow and light, flicker through my heart. They come screaming, devoutly dividing my body.

I will no longer cling to the one or two small affections hidden within brick walls, nor to the yellow glow of late-night lamps. I will return half-asleep, half-dreaming.

There is still a road ahead of me. There will be other weathered brick walls. And perhaps, in my dreams at night, the light will be a different color.